G-DRAGON of BIGBANG

Haha suka bigbang sih dari sekitar tahun 2011. Inget banget waktu itu masih kuliah dan suka liat MV nya bareng temen2 dan lagi-lagi aku suka sama yang jarang disukai sama temen2. Mereka kebanyakan suka sama TOP taeyang seungri dan daesung.
Dan saya suka sekali sama g-dragon soalny style dia yang aneh dan kereeen banget suaranya. Haha
Tapi namanya juga cewek labil ya jadi ganti ganti idola. Haha
Tapi gara-gara video crooked aku jadi suka banget dan makin gila suka nya.
G-dragon aaah---

Dan ditambah lagi buka album "COUP D'ETAT" makin gilaaa sayaaaa!
♡ BANGET SAMA G DRAGON
Haha ntah bakal labil lagi gak. Kayaknya bakal 3 doank deh
1. Kellin quinn, vocal of sleeping with sirens
2. G-dragon of BIGBANG
3. Lee Minki

Udah ah itu doank kayaknya. Kalo ceweknya suka style Sandara Park of 2NE1 sama Hana Tajima ♡

setelah beberapa tahun ke musik scream, hardcore tapi tetep2 ujung2nya ke hip hop lagi.

Bigbang itu bukan boyband biasa. Mereka bisa bersolo karir dan suaranya emang2 bener2 bagus. Tampang? Ah alami dan kece menueut aku. Dance? Ah itu yang buat saya jatuh cinta. Taeyang? Waaaw best dance haha
Tapi G-dragon? Hot dance (efek dance di *GO SHOW)
Ih gregetan.

Suka banget ekspresi g dragon kalo ketemu lee haru. Ya ampun tuh anak lucu banget. Tablo sama kang hye itu ngidam apaan ya? Punya anak se unyu itu dan ngfans sama oppa jiyong :)

Haru sekecil itu aja suka sama jiyong apalagi kakak rizty ini haha

Insya allah gak akan labil.
Karena mereka akan menjadi influence aku buat berstyle ria.
Hijab tetep. Kece tetep.

*@riztyAP

Gagal CPNS lagi :(

Ini tahun kedua aku ikut tes CPNS.
Tahun kemarin aku nggak lulus karena nilai TIU aku kurang 5point. Tahun ini nggak lulus karena nilai nya pas-pasan aja. TIU TWK TKP lulus semua tapi karena kalah nilai sama kakak-kakak di atas. Dan daerah itu cuma ambil 8 CPNS doang dan saya ada di urutan ke 20 jadi ya nggak ke pake donk aku nya.
Hah-_- apa bener aku ini pecundang? Begitu sulitnya mengikuti tes CPNS ini ya allah.

Kalo lagi kayak ini berasa tak berguna aku di keluargaku. Tapi banyak temen temen udah nyemangati dan insya allah ada jalan kerjaan lain.
Karena aku nggak kuat sama kerjaan aku sekarang. Masalah honor nggak masalah kalo pekerjaan itu nyaman dan membuat kita bahagia.
Intinya aku hanya ingin mengajar anak-anak. Bukan kerja di kantor yang mengurus berkas guru dan semuanya (tata usaha plus operator). Tanggung jawabnya begitu besar belum kena marah atasan. Belum kena marah guru. Belum honor yang tak kunjung dibayar bahkan lupa :(

Ya allah mungkin karena aku tak pernah bersyukur dan tak pernah bersedekah :(
Jauhkanlah sifat iri dan dengki ini ya allah.
Dekatkanlah sifat bersyukur aku ya allah.

Banyak belajar untuk tes berikutnya :)

Rizty... come back :)

Hai :) sudah lama sekali tidak jumpa disini haha
Kangen banget. Banyak cerita yang ingin aku share, tugas-tugas kuliah PGSD yang blom aku upload, sama idola-idola baru haha plus film-film terbaru yang udah aku tonton:) :D
Tapi itu butuh waktu yang cukup panjang buat ngshare nya. Butuh good mood juga.

Untuk kali ini aku mau sedikit ngeluarin uneg-uneg tentang aku sendiri. Haha
Beberapa hari ini aku merasakan beberapa kali down. Kalo aku pikir-pikir aku akan merasakan ini untuk beberapa tahun sekali. Dimana kita merasa tidak berguna, tidak sukses, dan menjadi orang yang paling menyedihkan didunia ini.

Kemarin aku merasakan itu. Dimana aku menyesal tak bisa lulus CPNS tahun kemarin. Dimana aku merasa tak bersyukur sama yang telah di dapat. Dimana apa yang telah kita lakukan itu sia-sia :'( sangat merasa berdosa telah berpikir seperti itu. Tapi ntah kenapa aku seperti itu. Diluar sana masih banyak yang tak seberuntung aku tapi aku masih merasa iri dan tidak bersyukur. Tahun ini aku harus berdoa dan berusaha semaksimal mungkin untuk lulus CPNS karena aku sangat ingin membahagiakan kedua orang tua ku. Aku ingin membuat mereka bangga. Aku ingin melaksanakan apa yang telah aku ucapkan dalam hati. Insya allah. Hamba hanya menginginkan itu ya allah.
Hamba akan selalu bersyukur.

Itu masalah pekerjaan. Sekarang aku masih honor. Ya honor di sebuah SD negeri di kota palembang. Disini aku sebagai tata usaha. Padahal aku lulusan keguruan tapi gak papa mencari pengalaman. Tahun ini berharap bisa menjadi guru kelas. Tapi apalah daya aku tetap menjadi tata usaha yang merangkap operator sekolah. Dan menjadi wali kelas 2B sementara waktu. Dan terkadang menjadi pengurus perpustakaan yang harus mengurusi buku-buku :(
ntah bagaimana aku melaksanakannya. Itu membuat aku menjadi kebingungan tapi kalo tidak seperti aku tidak akan mendapatkan gaji 500ribu perbulan. Itu lah uang untuk memenuhi kebutuhan aku. Apapun itu. Karena sekarang aku tak pernah lagi minta sama mommy. Aiiis -_- aku ingin menjadi rizty yang dulu haha

Tapi seharusnya aku harus bersyukur apapun itu. Aamiin. Ya aku akan berusaha untuk bersyukur ya allah.

Masalah hati.
Ya beberapa waktu ini hubungan kami alhamdulillah baik baik saja. Bertengkar, beda pendapat itu sering. Marah marah itu sering juga. Tapi jangan sampe berakhir hehe
Karena betapa aku sangat menyayanginya. Lebih dari apapun. Dia sosok pria yang sangat aku kagumi. Dan telah menjadi pacarku selama 2030 hari ini dan akan terus berlanjut sampe kapanpun hehe :)
Ntah bodoh atau apa kalo aku sukses aku ingin mengajaknya haha karena aku akan selalu bersama. Dia yang akan aku bahagiakan untuk orang kedua nya. Pertama mommy.
Aku sangat menyayanginya dengan segala kejahatan, kebaikan, keramahan, ketulusan, dan kecentilannya. Semoga dia gak pernah lagi menyakiti aku. Walaupun disakiti tetap saja aku bertahan haha

Masalah diri.
Aku ingin sekali menjadi wanita yang aku impikan. Menjadi wanita yang dia sukai. Dia sayangi. Dia banggakan. Aku berusaha berubah menjadi cantik :)
Aku juga ingin berubah menjadi lebih soleha. Meninggalkan kenakalan selama ini. Haha ya gimana ya aku nggak mau munafik. Kalo sebenarnya aku nakal juga haha tapi tenang apa yang harus dijaga tetap terjaga. Karena mempunyai pacar yang sangat menjaga :)
Aku ingin menjadi orang yang lebih baik ya allah. ibadah, sifat dan sikap ingin sekali berubah tanpa harus menghilangkan ciri khas aku haha

Sekian dulu yaa
Besok aku posting lagi.
Capek ni tangan ngetik di handphone.
-rizty-

Lirik Lagu King For A day, Pierce The Veil Feat. Kellin Quinn of Sleeping with Sirens

"King For A Day"
(feat. Kellin Quinn of Sleeping with Sirens)

[Vic Fuentes & Kellin Quinn]
Dare me to jump off of this Jersey bridge?
I bet you never had a Friday night like this
Keep it up, keep it up, let's raise our hands
I take a look up at the sky and I see red
Red for the cancer, red for the wealthy
Red for the drink that's mixed with suicide
Everything red

[Kellin Quinn]
Please, won't you push me for the last time
Let's scream until there's nothing left
So sick of playing, I don't want this anymore
The thought of you's no fucking fun
You want a martyr, I'll be one
Because enough's enough, we're done

[Vic Fuentes]
You told me think about it, well I did
Now I don't wanna feel a thing anymore
I'm tired of begging for the things that I want
I'm over sleeping like a dog on the floor

[Vic Fuentes]
The thing I think I love
Will surely bring me pain
Intoxication, paranoia, and a lot of fame
Three cheers for throwing up
Pubescent drama queen
You make me sick, I make it worse by drinking late

[Kellin Quinn]
Scream until there's nothing left
So sick of playing, I don't want to anymore
The thought of you's no fucking fun
You want a martyr I'll be one
Because enough's enough, we're done

[Vic Fuentes]
You told me think about it, well I did
Now I don't wanna feel a thing anymore
I'm tired of begging for the things that I want
I'm over sleeping like a dog on the floor

[Kellin Quinn]
Imagine living like a king someday
A single night without a ghost in the walls
And if the bass shakes the earth underground
We'll start a new revolution now
(Now! Alright here we go)

[Vic Fuentes]
Hail Mary, forgive me
Blood for blood, hearts beating
Come at me, now this is war!

Fuck with this new beat
Oh!

[Kellin Quinn & Vic Fuentes]
Now terror begins inside a bloodless vein
I was just a product of the street youth rage
Born in this world without a voice or say
Caught in the spokes with an abandoned brain
I know you well but this ain't a game
Blow the smoke in diamond shape
Dying is a gift so close your eyes and rest in peace

[Vic Fuentes]
You told me think about it, well I did
Now I don't wanna feel a thing anymore
I'm tired of begging for the things that I want
I'm over sleeping like a dog on the floor

[Kellin Quinn]
Imagine living like a king someday
A single night without a ghost in the walls
We are the shadows screaming take us now

[Vic Fuentes]
We'd rather die than live to rust on the ground
Shit

LIRIK LAGU Sleeping with sirens- "Iris"

(originally by Goo Goo Dolls)

And I'd give up forever to touch you
'Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now

And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
'Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's meant to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah, you'd bleed just to know you're alive

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's meant to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's meant to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am

LIRIK LAGU "Swing Life Away" Machine Gun Kelly (feat. Kellin Quinn)

[Intro Guitar]

[Verse 1: Machine Gun Kelly]
Am I loud and clear?
Or do I gotta scream like I did every day when I was a troubled teen, huh?
Do you want to know my past and see every single scar and know what they mean, huh?
17 running up in Mickey D's begging for a double cheese, huh,
Singing "I don't want to grow up don't nobody like you when your 23"
I came from nothing but a fucking unsupportive father I don't ever see,
I had to watch a crooked jury put my brother in the penitentiary,
I never fit in.
Criticism, made me the man I couldn't be,
I'm reminiscing on when life was different spending every day at Chuckee Cheese, uh

[Hook: Kellin Quinn]
We live on front porches and swing life away,
We get by just fine here on minimum wage,
If love is a labor I'll slave till the end,
And I'll run these streets if you give me a chance,

[Verse 2: Machine Gun Kelly]
I've been here so long,
Maybe I should runaway,
Try to find a summer day,
What is love,
Love is pain,
Love is butterflies and stomach aches,
Love is looking out a windowpane, tears dripping looking like you're in the rain,
For someone you don't even know but for somebody you may never see again,
I am only alive once,
And I'm a die when God wants,
So fill the sky with diamonds,
Because that's how it's gonna look when I'm gone,
Had a vision as a kid that one day I would change the world with my song,
Several years have passed and now that vision came to life that boy's a fucking icon,

[Hook: Kellin Quinn]

We live on front porches and swing life away,
We get by just fine here on minimum wage,
If love is a labor I'll slave till the end,
And I'll run these streets if you give me a chance,

[Bridge: Machine Gun Kelly]
Sometimes I don't want to fucking wake up,
When all they want to do is bring me down,
And all the things I've went through as I came up,
Are the fucking reasons why I run this town,

[Hook: Kellin Quinn and Machine Gun Kelly]
We live on front porches and swing life away,
(And to my fans, I told you)
We get by just fine here on minimum wage,
If love is a labor I'll slave till the end,
And I'll run these streets if you give me a chance,
We live on front porches and swing life away,
(All my dreamers)
We get by just fine here on minimum wage,
(Stay real)
If love is a labor I'll slave till the end,
(And to my love)
And I'll run these streets if you give me a chance,
(Stay here)
Swing life away,
(What we do)
Swing life away,
(And what we do)
Swing life away,
(Yeah)
Swing life away,
(And we just)
Swing life away,
(Let's swing life away)
Swing life away,
(Let's swing life away)
Swing life away,
(Let's swing life away)
Swing life away.

Lirik Lagu Sleeping with sirens (Feat. MGK) - Alone

Could you check my pulse for me
To see if I’m alive
Cuz every time that I am near you
Is the only time I feel alright
If there were any way
I could think to turn back time
I’d stay here with you
Sometimes I sit and wonder
Sometimes I feel like letting go
All I know is no one should have to be alone

I don’t want to be alone
I don’t want to die alone
I could fall apart here and now
I don’t want to die alone
I want to be with you, you, you
I only want to be with you , you, you

Tell me what’s the point of life
Is it material?
Had everything I could ever want and probably more
When I lay in bed at night
All I do is think of you
So when all this is gone what do I have to come home to?
This life goes by so fast
Pretty soon I’ll grow old
What would I have but some stories now that I have told
No one to share them with
And when it’s all done
What am I left with?
Tell me what’s left

I don’t want to be alone
I don’t want to die alone
I could fall apart here and now
I don’t want to die alone

Leave me?
How the fuck you gonna leave me?
When I’m the one that’s on TV
With these girls screaming
Outside with my CD
And I’m begging?
Naw baby, you’re the one that can’t keep me

Leave me?
Girl how the fuck you gonna leave me?
You know I love you, when we fight and we argue
I kiss and I hug you
You push me back, you say that I’m trouble
And every Bonnie got a Clyde with her

Every woman needs somebody that’s gonna ride with her
And I can’t go on staying alive if I’m alone
Pick up the phone and say hello
I’d rather die with her
Now my night’s so cold

When your heart is frozen
Mine’s exposed you know this
Try to blame the fame for the way I’ve changed
And you know those claims are bogus
Baby it’s not me, it’s us
Maybe now all we need is trust
Maybe this Hennessey will solve our problems
Baby pick it up

I don’t want to be alone
I don’t want to die alone
I could fall apart here and now
I don’t want to die alone

Could you check my pulse for me
To see if I’m alive